I thought you’d loved me
I thought you were my friend
Ooh I thought you’d actually be there for me
As you said when I poured out my heart for you.
But alas I was nothing but a fool.
Not for trusting you,
No, not even for loving you.
But for believing that I could be ever loved.
As the clock struck twelve,
The midnight of 31 flashed before my eyes
And I remembered.
I remember the warm embrace, the gentle care
And the sweet lips.
I remember the smile that could heal,
The words that could inspire,
And the kiss that could cure my soul of darkness.
My apologies for being a bitch,
But that’s who I am without you.
But all in all,
I was, am and will always love you
Forever and one.
To Mr. X,
I know I come off as an arrogant, mean, sarcastic and narcissistic ass.
I know I put my interests above others, and grab opportunities.
I know I’m seriously weird and an absolute pain in the ass.
And I know it’s hard tolerating me (believe me I’ve got 18 years of experience in that department!) But you’ve done the same.
And below all the layers of insecurity and insanity there lies a teeny weeny bit of innocence, love and care (mathematically equal to 1/infinity-1).
And with that little bit I sincerely and wholly ask your forgiveness.
I now realise that it might be insulting and derogatory to a person who’s independent and determined, who’s dedicated and sincere and more than all who thought that I was worthy of friendship.
I know I’m asking a lot, but please do accept this letter of apology (You know how hard this must have been for the egoistic me)
And even if we are not friends any more, I don’t wanna be on the loathing list.
Regards and love
An egoistic, worthless creature.